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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 00:36

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

She married twice! .

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

How did you cope when someone you love, dealing with hyper-independence and trauma, felt they needed space to heal alone? Were you able to support them without overstepping, and did you eventually reconnect? How did that journey unfold?

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

How can I watch porn on TikTok?

Why did i forgive my father ?

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

How good do you sing and how do you know this?

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Ive learnt so much.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

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She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

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The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

My family never makes their pension either.

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And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

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Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

(And it was in our own minds.)

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One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

I will be 64.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

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Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

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I write beautiful poetry .

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

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This is how, and why children get BPD.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

She wouldn,t have been !

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I waited trembling.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

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I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

One cannot live in the past .

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

All the time i was locked up.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Especially a lifetime of it.

And i lived it daily.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I could never make a relationship work though!

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

This is soul school!.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

He resisted the act ,that day.

I was scared of men, in general

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

I couldn’t, believe it.

He knew the spot.

As i do to all so called friends.?

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

Who then, do I blame.?

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

When she asked me how she looked .

I was very sick at this time too.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

So, i spoilt her more .

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

What did i know ?

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Would this be the day?

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

We all went to grammer schools

I said to her

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I don,t even have a pension.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I never cut or harmed myself..

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Comes on , in middle age.

She was in good health!

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

She loved him until the end.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

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I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Im still living with it.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

It was going to be , some day.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

But ive been too sick for many years..

I had hoped to write a book about this .

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

We were not on the streets..

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

I was seconnd youngest,

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

I think the readers, may guess!

I have no regrets .

I was 9 years of age.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

But, we were locked up after school.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

On the 31st of Jan this month .

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

But it wasn’t much.

Put me off passion for life!!

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

She found it foreign!.

My life is so biszare .

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Was to survive, this bastard.

So whats the point in blame.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

I did it because my mum asked me too!

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Im dying but, im not bitter.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.